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I’ve heard of people freaking out about turning 30. Or 50. Or 65. But, no amount of Googling is coming up with a “28-year-old midlife crisis”… wth?
I’ll be 28 this week. Sounds young, right? And turning 28 doesn’t really mean anything – no insurance discounts, I can already rent a car, buy cigarettes and get drunk legally… but for some reason the thought of turning 28 has me beside myself. Weird, I know.
It started last week, when I actually realized my birthday was rapidly approaching. I spent the next 24,48,36 hours reminiscing. Then *BAM* Whitney Houston died. Seems irrelevant, but my childhood is filled with memories that were directly related to her and her amazing voice. I can’t say it came as a surprise, as I was well aware that my childhood idol had some personal issues, but she was only 48. Only 20 years older than I am. Then my thought process went as follows:
Woe is me –> OMG Whitney is gone –> I miss elementary school when things were so much easier –> all the journals & records I used to keep –> remembering the goals I set for myself –> the hidden letter stored in the crawl space that I wrote for myself and have never opened.
Yes – there is a letter in a box, somewhere in the heap in our crawl space that I actually wrote to myself when I was young. I’ve never opened it. Mostly because I vividly recall writing down all the things I wanted to achieve at an early age. I don’t remember really WHAT those goals were, and considering I was so young when I wrote it, I’m sure there isn’t anything too mind-blowing, but still. I’m too scared to open it knowing that there is a chance I will let my younger self down.
Again – I know this is all absolutely absurd. If I’m freaking out about turning 28, God help us all when I near an actual milestone.
I feel bad for not blogging much recently – hence my online confession here. So to all of those who keep emailing me every single day– I apologize for my cyber absence – life has gotten the best of me recently.
So, after a minor breakdown in my car during my morning commute, and again prior to writing this, I’ve come up with a solution.
STOP BEING SUCH A BABY!
- I have a beautiful family – a son that amazes me day in and day out, a husband I love with all my heart, two dogs that I pretend not to like but I really do, incredible parents, an extended family that most people would seriously envy…
- I consider myself to be mostly successful. I joined the military, put myself through school, have a job I love, and have every intention of working on my Masters this year (next month, actually).
- Despite my impression of the time that seems to be flying by too quickly for my comfort, I AM young… and in good health.
I know I can be a hard a** sometimes… but recently I’m struggling with kicking my own butt here. So, starting today, I vow to be happy, despite the wrinkle I found this week. And the gray hairs that I already see. And for those of you who live vicariously through my overly dramatic life, I promise to update my blog more often. If only to show you photos of my beautiful boy and all his craziness.
28 can’t be too bad, right?
By the way – I also make the following vows to keep myself sane:
- Get out of the house more between the months of November – March. I’m such a hermit in the winter. Ugh I hate the cold though…
- Start doing things for ME.
- Graduate Magna Cum Laude with my Masters in Strategic Management.
- Find something that somewhat resembles working out that I actually enjoy doing so I don’t have any excuses anymore
- Only eat junk food once a week.
- Teach Matthew something new every chance I can.
- Stop being so OCD with the house & accept that a clean house with a 2-year-old is a futile mission
- Travel more. Starting now. We don’t have to go on international adventures all the time – exploring in the states counts too.
As a side note here, if anyone wants to go on this “personal improvement” journey with me, I’d welcome the company 🙂
P.s. Per my new years resolution, I full intend on rocking the red lipstick on my bday 🙂
I hate New Years resolutions because I never keep them. It’s exciting for the first month or two having a new goal, but by March at the latest I usually stop caring. So, this year I’ve decided to set easily achievable goals for 2012 as my “Official New Years Resolutions” and then today figure out a plan for the more important things, starting today (December 30, still in 2011, so NOT a new years resolution). If they aren’t actually labeled “resolutions,” or if I can accomplish them before March rolls around perhaps there is a better chance I can live up to my own high expectations.
So, here goes nothing…
THE OFFICIAL 2012 NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS:
1 – Wear red lipstick. Yep. None of that crappy red lip gloss stuff either – full-blown whintening-toothpaste-commercial red. I suppose the big question here is how I should really present myself with the red lips. Maybe pull my hair back and wear creepy eyeshadow. Perhaps I can also rock a cheap guitar and pretend like I’m part of the Robert Palmer “Addicted to Love” music video?
Nah – I’m thinking like a closeup of my mouth – I’ll just make that the background for my blog homepage. Something mildly provocative but kind of creepy at the same time? Almost Rocky-Horror-Picture-Show-Esque?
However, the true challenge in this resolution is actually making the red lipstick work, which required beautiful teeth. I’ve spent the last couple months in preparation for this already, becoming somewhat obsessed with my teeth. Fingers crossed by my birthday I’ll be able to rock these red babies.
2 – Stop looking at my cell phone in the car (while driving). I’m guilty despite the horrific videos they seem to play on the news each morning, or those commercials & billboards meant to scare the crap out of you enough to STOP texting while driving. Although I’ll admit that at one point I actually did post on Facebook, while driving, ABOUT one of those billboards. I suppose that was not the desired effect. Anyway, despite my horrible habit of feeling the need to constantly be connected to the world (although most of you don’t care about the fact that I saw that cow getting the crap scared out of him by a flock of birds) I hereby vow to stop using my phone entirely while driving from now on. That includes quick glances – my car DOES have a working clock, so there are no excuses. So for anyone trying to reach me while I’m in my car from now on, I apologize in advance that you’ll just have to wait.
3 – Reduce the frequency of swear words flying out of my mouth. I have a mouth like a sailor and don’t even realize it sometimes. I don’t want Matthew blurting out these terrible words so I better get this under control.
4 – Learn a new language. This one I don’t think I can achieve before March. Perhaps this would be better off in my December list? I haven’t yet decided WHAT language to learn, although I’m starting to lean more towards Spanish primarily because it will come him helpful here in the US and then also help me a lot with my job where I deal with people who speak Spanish every single day. But none of that ghetto Spanish, I’m thinking like Spain-Spanish. Besides, if I can learn Spanish and talk without my ridiculous white-girl-accent, then I’ll feel more confident learning a more challenging language.
Well, that’s about it. Four basic goals for 2012, 3 of which I’m pretty sure I can knock out before my interest fades. Wish me luck 🙂
Maybe that’s the wrong term – White Elephant. Anyway – we drew names and bought the most ridiculous gifts for one another. While this is only the second year we’ve done it, I think it’s somewhat of a tradition and gives us a reason to stop working and spend an hour or two laughing at each other.
This year the gifts included a Twilight calendar (after a conversation about being too cool for teenager love flicks), a Bill Clinton corkscrew, an X-Rated dot-to-dot book, lottery tickets and a silly magical orb (among others):
Typically I don’t “steal” information from other bloggers or websites, but occassionally I come across something that is just too good to pass up. Sometimes when life hands you lemons, you should take the advice from a 2 year old and de-stress in ways you just normally wouldn’t think of…
Challenge yourself every day. Try climbing the stairs carrying two soccer balls while wearing your father’s shoes. Remember, failure IS an option.
De-clutter! Start by throwing all your dishes in the garbage. After that I suggest toothbrushes and important paper work.
Pee on the floor and stomp in it like a puddle. You’ll be shocked how much better you feel.
Whether the glass is half empty or half full is irrelevant if you dump it out on the sofa. You’re welcome.
If you’re feeling aggressive, or just bored, scream in a cat’s face.
Don’t ever be afraid to hand someone an ice cube while they’re on the toilet. That stuff is cold. You don’t have to be in pain!
Socks are poison. Trust me, don’t wear them! Happiness will soon follow!
Pound on a computer keyboard like Jerry Lee Lewis playing the piano. Feel better? I thought so. Great Balls of Fire!
If you fall down, stay down. Someone will pick you up eventually.
Quick thrills fuel the heart. Have you learned to delete things off the DVR yet? DO IT. It’s AwWwWwEsOmE.
Seize the day and the night and the middle of the night and the early morning. Seize everything, y’all! Never stop seizing stuff.
Tired of looking at yourself in the mirror? So was I until I met my friend permanent marker. FACE TATTOOS ARE RAD.
This might be a tough one, but you gotta trust me: Take a crap in the tub. It’s surreal.
Live in the moment because there is nothing else. Seriously, there isn’t. Not that I’m aware of at least.
If you’re gonna run, do it at top speed, man. Life is too short to walk in the mall.
I’ve seen God, and his name is iPad. Let us pray.
This is all courtesy of Jason Good 365 – thank you for getting my day off to an AWESOME start.
Ever since Matthew was born I’ve eagerly awaited the day when he would let me successfully read an entire book, cover to cover, with him actually paying attention. To date, failed attempts have involved the gnawing of book covers, tearing and crunching of the pages, clawing at any brightly colored images, and general rioting. HOWEVER, yesterday Matthew and I curled up on the couch and read not one, not two, but three and a half books together with very little opposition on his end! Granted, I didn’t actually read the books – we studied each page and made up stories as we went along – usually accompanied by silly animal sounds and weird facial expressions, but that is entirely irrelevant – the pages were all successfully turned and viewed and many warranted giggles from my little man.
Oh Google, how I love thee…
I found the set list, and, most importantly, the song I was looking for. Guess I’m too young – come to find out they did a cover on a song that is much older than I am 🙂
I thought this was just the coolest idea so of course I wanted to get involved!
The ABC Million Mom’s Challenge is aimed at connecting one million moms in the U.S. with one million moms overseas around the important issues of pregnancy and childbirth. The challenge officially launches on September 19th on Good Morning America and I’ve already signed up to participate (yea!).
If you have a blog and want to get involved, its really easy to sign up – just fill out the form HERE.
I’m mostly posting tonight because I’m eager to test out the WordPress app on my new iPad (yippee!), but also because I keep getting the “what did you do this weekend” question. So, here i sit with very little to report.
On Friday we had date night with Lorrie & Lucio and had such a great time. Obviously I am not a food critic but can I just say that dinner was simply amazing. It’s great to try new things but to top it off with great service, beautiful plates and delicious everything it really makes you want to go back & i would very highly recommend ChoLon down on 16th & Blake.
Saturday wad supposed go start with a hike but my poor little monkey was not feeling well. Between his vaccinations & teething he just wasn’t up to it. So we stayed home & watched movies alllll day. Seriously – I think we watched like 5 movies lol. Including sucker punch, which looks pretty good in blu ray btw. Matthew did however manage to find way on top of the patio table while I wasn’t looking and not only scared the crap out of me but I’m also fairly certain the neighbor was about to call social services on me. Ahhh…this child of mine…
Today we planned on going for that hike, but since Matthew slept until 9 it was too late in the day to go ( it’s too hot!!) so we had another relaxing day around the house.
That’s about it – not much to tell I suppose. Not even any pictures to share! Next weekend we have some fun plans though so I’ll make up for our lazy break for sure.
I feel like the last month has been a blur and recently have found myself “collecting” to-do’s, as if I have nothing better to do. My boss says I function best in high-stress situations – at first I rolled my eyes at him, but on second thought I think he just might be onto something. Unfortunately, lately, I seem to be struggling with balancing the things I want to do, the things I need to do, and the things I’m obligated to do. I feel I’m failing in certain areas, and despite being well aware of this I still find myself adding more and more to my day.
I’ve started the application process for my Masters Degree. Obviously I won’t be starting this fall since I think classes start next week, but probably in the Spring. I know that the time requirements for doing this are pretty high, and I might be borderline insane by taking this on now, but I can’t help but feel that *NOW* is the best time for me. I’m in a great place in my career, Matthew is getting old enough to partially entertain himself, Zach will start working again soon… right?
I have tried looking online for some inspirational mom’s out there, but its a bit of a struggle. Most mom-bloggers are either stay-at-home mom’s or career-driven success stories (not that those two types of mom’s aren’t inspirational, but they aren’t really juggling a career, school AND a family). So, I guess that just means I will have to take that on too… blog about my dedication to my family foremost, and my stubbornness to succeed in both my career and prove to myself that I CAN kick a** and get my masters degree at the same time.
Fingers crossed I come out on top, with all my hair & limit my addictions to caffeine 🙂
Here’s a photo of me a few month’s ago when I got my Bachelor’s Degree:
1) Successfully balance all of my “dreams”
2) Devote at least one full weekend day to spending time with Zach & Matthew
3) Get a higher GPA than I did on my Bachelor’s Degree (still graduated Cum Laude, but if I could rock my MBA with Summa Cum Laude I would be on Cloud 9)
4) Accept the fact that while new books ARE prettier, they are also 2x as much and a used book contains the same information…
5) Pay off my student loans before we retire (ha!)
6) Continue our weekend adventures in order to maintain sanity
7) Continue working hard at Boba & try to be the very best Director I possibly can
8) Keep the house moderately clean (long gone are my OCD cleaning days thanks to 2 cat-dogs and a child determined to mess up any clean space in the house)
9) Learn from my mistakes rather than dwell on them
10) BE HAPPY!!! (I think I can check this one off the list though)